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This is the million dollar question.
I've been divorced for almost 2 years now and went n/c four months ago. I have seen axh twice, in the car, in the last 4 months. My heart pounds and I go into shock. But, like Lexie says, you get over the shock, and move forward.
I am waiting for that day also.... Hugs my friend, keep with the n/c and one day both of us won't give a shxt.