MattM316

I agree.
What tends to happen with me is that I'll go weeks without touching any kind of alcohol and don't miss it.
Then as soon as I have money in my pocket I think it'll be a great idea to get some alcohol because 'i'm sure it'll be ok'.
It's that mindset that gets me every time and I still can't seem to control it.

But because of my past involving withdrawal seizures, my tolerance isn't what it used to be and I tend to get nasty withdrawals now which last up to three days - so that's three nights of no sleep, no food, severe anxiety, shakes etc.

Job wise, my first job I was at for 15 years. Since then I've had short term jobs and even tho they were not aware of any alcohol issues, I left them all because I just had to take time off due to alcohol, so regardless of whether they knew, it was all alcohol related.

I think my next step is to start going to meetings again.
The friend I mentioned earlier is someone I only really started talking to properly a few months ago and I never even realised how bad her problem was.
She goes to weekly meetings so when she's out of detox I want to start going with her.

What I don't understand tho, and maybe someone can enlighten me, is that her detox is two weeks in some kind of facility.
When I was in hospital after withdrawal seizures, I was only in there for three days and presumably in that time they were detoxing me too. So I'm not sure why the vast difference in times?