Wow thank you everybody for the responses. I've been reading the secular pages the past few days. I'm on day 47. I've stayed away from drinking associates and found a job away from alcohol. Waiting on my copy of rational recovery, and read the crash course.
I struggle lately with resentment, depression, and general restlessness. I think I need to meditate, I keep saying I will but never do. Need to work on those feelings, I'm aware of what they can lead to. Oddly enough, the urge to drink is barely there. I'm also seeing my doctor tomorrow about an antabuse.