Originally Posted by
JeffreyAK 
Have you made a serious attempt to quit and stay quit for, say, even a month? I only felt normal when I was drunk, too, but it took quitting and some sober time to understand that that "normal" was just drunk, and I felt awful and depressed and anxious when I wasn't drunk simply because I was an addict.
I have gone long periods without in the past. The last few years, the longest I've gone without might be 2 weeks?
The problem is I never feel normal. Drinking just tricks my braining into not giving a damn that I'm abnormal. I feel on top of the world drunk, no shame or fear.