So today is party day, there will be drinking by those who do not have the addictive disease that will be nice for them and my aunt, her husband and I, plus a few others will not drink because we just don't!
I never had the confidence in the past to be able to travel abroad, to spend time with people I have never met who speak a foreign language, to relax and enjoy my life without feeling I must behave in one way or another in a bid to please others but always failing to achieve peace within as I self-medicated those feelings of anxiety, low self-esteem and inadequacy with alcohol.
Today I am anxious in an excited way and genuinely interested in learning more about other humans and trying to keep myself free from the stress and depressive cycle my mind has so often defaulted to.
Wishing you all a happy and sober weekend wherever you are.
Driving my wagon of hope through beautiful views on my road to myself