Originally Posted by
QuietToday 
I hate to be a member of SR who has unfortunately come here, left, and returned even worse than before. That said, I do want to get sober, I've managed some good slots sober before, and I believe that I am ready to do it again.
Welcome back, glad to hear that you are seeing some clarity in what your goals are and noticing some of the damage drinking is causing. It will only get worse of course.
The bolded part above is what matters most. Nearly all of us had multiple attempts at getting sober before we finally got serious about it, I know I did. There are also lots of people here on SR who are still actively drinking, you would find that in any recovery community.