Welcome illuminate, mandosca, and sadsadgirl
guys I quit then went back to drinking every week for many years. I know how hard it is.
The solution for me was to try something different, and keep adding more and more things to my 'recovery toolbox' so that when a problem, or a bad emotion, or a craving came up I had other things I could do besides buying booze.
It could be having friends to call, posting here, going to a meeting, outpatient rehab, counselling...whatever works. Just keep adding to that toolbox.
you'll get back what you put into your recovery
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