Originally Posted by
jimmyc 
I just didn't know where else to turn at the time.
I'm doing my best to not drink again.
Deciding to drink because you don't know where else to turn is not "doing your best" Jimmy. You can call samaritans again, you can come here, you can go to an AA or an NA meeting, you could call a psychiatrist, there's a plethora of things you can do. You just have to be willing to do them.