Thanks everyone!! I just stumbled on this site yesterday and am really glad I did. I've been reading different stories and posts and it helps. I keep wondering how I got myself into this mess. Three years ago I never even drank or did drugs. I was the poster child for clean and sober. People tell me that when they see me know it's like a different person and I don't even look happy but rather like I'm putting on a show for everyone. At this point I just want to get back to the girl I used to be.
For everyone I really wish you luck and I want to say that it helps a lot to see other people going through this as well. I feel really alone sometimes...even when I'm surrounded by people....hearing all of this eases that some!!! Thanks!!!!