Nothing changes if nothing changes - right?
I think we all understand the cycle - the ride on autopilot to the liquor store, drunkenness, the wretchedness of hangover and panicky aftermath, dealing with life in a fearful impaired sickish state, relative "normal", ride on autopilot to the store.
To get off the merry go round from hell, I had (have!) to make sobriety my number one focus point and remain consciously fixed on staying true to one thing: Today I will not drink no matter what happens.
AA helps many people here, and there are other groups too - and I am telling you, the peace and serenity of living in your right mind cannot be overstated.
Please do not underestimate this beast in your head.