Hello and welcome, anonimuser.
I am a bipolar alcoholic as well.
When I was your age, an older bipolar alcoholic said to me:
"It's good that you are working on this at your age -- you won't have to suffer as long as I did."
We were patients on a psych ward at the time.
Although I vividly remember what she said, at that time I wasn't ready to take any action to solve my drinking problem.
twenty-two years later I walked into an AA meeting and found a solution.
You said: "I thought 'what the hell, one glass of wine can't do any harm'. "
In hindsight, can you see the error in your thinking?
It's the first drink that does the damage.
The way I see it: it's time to learn some effective strategies to stay away from that first drink.
Or, continue making the same mistake and suffering the consequences.
I sincerely hope that it doesn't take you as long as it took me to learn.