Well the plan is to not drink of course. I will continue with my healthy lifestyle - clean food, excercise, lots of water etc.
In the last 2 years I've only got drunk on two separate occasions, one week ago and year and a half ago.
Actually, before that binge drinking on Saturday I was feeling really good, full of confidence, totally in control of my life with lots of plans.
And then people (winemaker) offered me a glass of wine.
I thought ''what the hell, one glass of wine can't do any harm''.
And then I've drunk second, third, forth...
And it felt so good to drink again. I thought what the hell, I was good to myself and my body for so long, one night binge drinking can't do me any harm.
Several hours later I was in a bar, drinking beers with my former pals.
I remember most of it then the brownout came.
Now this whole week was a mess, I've experienced several anxiety attacks, my mind is creating false memories (I hope), I am feeling extremely guilty...but it is getting progressively better.