If theres one thing I know about relapses is that there are no guarantees you'll make it back into sobriety. The odds are stacked against you. When you realize alcoholism is a raging river of death then you won't have any desire to jump in. It's too risky. When the risk out weighs the reward that's when the desire to stop drinking will occur. Once you're life is on the line that's when the risk becomes huge. Much easier to quit at this point. You're alcoholism will become a thing of the past and then you can get on with life.