Congrats on 8 months Jeni
In the years I've known you, you've always been kind and thoughtful caring and loving and open to making amends.
And...like the rest of us, you've always been kinda unforgiving on yourself.
Beating yourself up over the past is a very alcoholic thing to do - there is no solution, no do overs, and the remedy for that insolubility often comes in the shape of a bottle....
I have a long hstory of things I could be resentful about, but now my relationship with my folks doesn't depend on what happened back in the 70s or the 80s... it's based on the now.
Be the best you you can be - and I'd bet anything, it's more than enough
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