Hi Tursiops,
Sorry you are under a lot of stress these days. I agree that one of the AV's (or beast's) favorite tricks is to make us believe that we can't cope without booze. Not only is that hogwash, but I think booze actually debilitates the nervous system and makes us more stressed most of the time (except when we're actually drunk). I used to get really nervous and addled for days after getting really drunk, and then as soon as that wore off I'd be ready for the next weekend. Insanity!
I'm feeling calmer these days and trying to grow my inner stoic (or is it psychopath?) that doesn't care what the world throws my way. I'm not all the way there yet, but I don't really care about insults, provocations or work stress that much any more. Ok, the kids can still get to me.
Mastering your emotions without intoxicants is like a muscle that grows with exercise. Anyways, good luck with your job search!