I think whoever made up the idea that relapses are a part of recovery has a lot to answer for, Rilla - not to mention the idea that each relapse brings you closer to sobriety.
I understand such thoughts bring some kind of comfort but I think it's bunkum...
I really don't think expecting relapse is a good mindset to have.
There's
absolutely no reason why you can't have just experienced your last relapse
Build up your support network, and use it. Make the changes you need to make to reflect your desire to be sober.
Have a good well thought out plan of exactly how you'll stay sober.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html
You will get back what you put into staying sober.,..so give it your all - no thought of defeat!
You can do this
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