Hello Sleepie,
I can't begin to imagine what it has been like to work day-by-day to achieve those 9 months.
I also can't begin to imagine what your childhood was like for you. You deserve to be royally PO'd about it, though. Those 'Sons of Motherless Goats' had absolutely no right to treat you in such a contemptuous and abusive way!! NO RIGHT AT ALL!!!
There was NEVER anything you did to deserve the childhood you endured. No child deserves to be abused--it's something that shatters my heart a little each time I hear about it.
I also agree with you that the one apology you want is unlikely to happen...because SOMG's like that are cowardly and ignorant of what good, decent, caring human beings should do. SOMG's can be utterly incapable of recognizing their own failings.
My greatest hope for you is that someday you will truly know that you are worthy of a peaceful and joy-filled life. You absolutely deserve to feel joy!
I hope you were able to get a bit of sleep last night.
S