Originally Posted by
Loona 
So lost and so sad and pissed at myself for doing this same thing over and over and expecting something different.
I have a good life and I'm pissing it away. I don't know why.
Sorry for the rambling, but this is the only place where I feel safe saying this stuff.
im glad ya made it back,loona. youre not rambling so don't be sorry!
one of the definitions of insanity is
doing the same thing over and over expecting different results.
sooo many morning waking up and saying to myself," dammit I did it again!! im destroying my life and myself? why cant I stop?"
I just couldn't understand it.
then when I finally WANTED to get sober and was willing to do whatever necessary. I started asking the "why?"
the simplest, most straightforward answer I received:
" because youre an alcoholic and that's what alcoholics do when in active alcoholism."
there IS a solution!
do you WANT to get sober?
are you willing to do WHATEVER is necessary to get sober?