Going thru the mourning process takes
time as we often hear time and time again.
We mourn our loveable pets, family
member, friends, a job, etc. as well
as our love and dependency on alcohol
or drugs.
It was for me a deadly crutch I couldn't,
didn't want to let got of and set me up
for a huge down fail. Failure and a near
death experience.
What do we do when someone close
us passes away. Do we give ourselves
time to mourn in a healthy way and
move forward living life the way they
would want us to be. Healthy, happy
and content. Or.....
Do we wallow in sorrow and immerse
ourselves in destructive behavior making
us sick and numbing our pain so we don't
have to face those uncomfortable feeling
in a normal healthy way.
I went thru the mourning process of losing
my addiction to alcohol yrs ago beginning
in rehab for 28 days. During that time I went
thru daily exercises and learning about my
addiction and its affects on me and those
around me. then was given a program of
recovery to incorporate in all my affairs once
I returned home.
For a fair amount of time I would reminisce
about all the fun I was missing at those wonderful
clubs I went to. All the music, strobe lights, strangers
who laughed, dance and behaved like me when
under the influence of liquid poison.
As time went on and the longer I remained
sober, I eventually learned and realized that
none of those folks I met at the clubs were
truly my friends and most if not all of them
possibly could still be there today.
I eventually learned that alcohol was
robbing me of a healthier quality of life.
It didn't happen over time, but for each
new sober event became small miracles
in sobriety and life that never matched
one single drunk hungover moment I ever
had.
I don't mourn the addiction of alcohol
I had for a number of yrs. However, today
I celebrate each and ever sober day I
experience with passion and gratefulness.
The difference with losing love ones
and alcohol is that loved ones would
want us to not mourn them forever
where as alcohol could care less if I
mourned it or not. All it wants is to destroy
and take away ever ounce of freedom
I have for myself along with self worth,
happiness, honesty, etc.
Stand up to king alcohol and with your
sword of recovery, strike it down so it
will never stand taller than you as you
continue to wear your recovery armor
each day remaining strong, sober and
the person you are meant to be.
