The gut-wrenching hangovers and headaches.
The feelings of being demoralization and shame.
The mostly unsaid disappointment by my family.
The bemusement and concern of my friends and colleagues.
The embarrassment at remembering (or not) all the stupid things I said the night before.
The apologies and promises.
The muttering to myself in the morning when I vaguely remember how I embarrassed myself the night before.
The inability to fulfill my obligations and responsibilities the next day.
The inability to sleep or exercise.
The inability to function and be reliable.
The inability to clearly think and reason.
God, how I hate drinking.