I no longer need to say in the morning "Why? Just, Why? Why did you do that? And why will you do it again tonight? What do you get out of it? Just tell me, what did you get out if it that was any good? Why are you inflicting this pain on yourself evryday? It's nothing but pain and confusion, you do know that don't you? You know it's just a pointless waste of everything. Why? Just Why? Please stop. Please just stop. I hate it. I want to die. I just want the day to pass so I can do it all again."
Now I just say "Yaaaawn. Morning. What a lovely day". Have a stretch, get up, have a cup of tea and get on with the day until I want to go to bed at night."