Thank you. I've stayed sober through Saturday night, something I haven't done in a long time thanks to a lot of reading here. My grandson is 5 and is the biggest joy of my life. He deserves a better grandmother who is truly present for him each and every day. I feel so guilty considering all he has been through and every morning after a night of drinking I feel nothing but guilt and remorse. I'm hoping to never feel that way again. One day at a time.