The list was an example of me running my own self ragged trying to "fix" things. It did nothing but wear me out. It wasn't meant to come off like I'm still waiting for him to live life with me. I know that's not gonna happen.
I'm already doing most things alone, so I might as well be alone and save some sanity and money while doing it.
It took me a while to leave him alone and not ask him to do things, because our situation wasn't always like this. I guess it just took me a while to catch up and accept how things really are.