Ah! At the same time...
I realized recently- I have a lot of good qualities! This is huge. Because, I cannot just give away the best parts of myself. That can no longer happen. I feel sad at having to feel stingy about my personal gifts like a sense of humor or generosity, or even my small amount of creativity. I learned the hard way many times over that it will be taken for granted if not treated properly. Again, boundaries. My way was to simply be friendly towards everyone and be my "best" self all the time.
Sadly this just isn't wise.