Going to see an apartment today
I talked to the landlord, explained my credit situation, and they are willing to work with me. I'm going to see the place today. I'm so nervous and just can't calm my mind because this is a huge step for me.
Once again the old thoughts are coming: The thoughts that are more concerned about his well being than mine. I often have to correct my thoughts as they come, because putting my well being first isn't coming natural right now.
It will be sad to go, but deep down it's for the best. This is the only way I can have some peace of mind. I feel better when he's not here. It's so depressing in this house, like a cloud over us.