ericar

I cannot do this any more. My husband has been hospitalized twice for drinking and has been told he will die if he doesn't stop and get he persists. We have a toddler and a newborn. I am so sad for my children. I don't have financial concerns as I have always been the breadwinner thank goodness but I will miss him so much. I love him and really wanted him to get better but I can't bear to stay and watch him be hospitalized again. I feel guilty because I said for better or worse and I meant it but this is just too much. I don't know how I can be expected to just watch him die and subject our children to that too. He is a nice guy even when drunk and a very good father. I just can't watch him die. I'm really lonely and need encouragement to somehow make a new life for myself and my children without this constant worry and watching him self destruct.