Dwtbd, I'm so grateful for your post. It was uplifting, inspirational, descriptive, just so awesome.
So, I obviously cannot taper, because I'm addicted. I appreciate your advice regarding withdrawal medications, but if I'm to resurrect my career, albeit rather late, I cannot have that on my records.
I'm to stop, cold turkey and accept the consequences, I have no other choice. Hopefully, I'll come out the other side. I absolutely know that AVRT will work for me. I just need to stop drinking, stop this ridiculous tapering, that I'm unable to sustain; then make my Big Plan.
I've no psychological, spiritual, psychiatrist deficit that requires redressing, as far as I can see. If I do notice one, once sober, I'll deal with it through the appropriate channels.
Thanks to everyone that's posted on this thread. If I survive cold turkey, I'll be back and announce my BP date. Hugs to all.
