My AV didn't and still doesn't care if
im trying to live a sober life or not. All
it cares for is to satisfy its own selfish
needs. My AV in other words is called
my 'stinkin thinkin'.
I can say all I want to hush it up but
until I actually do something, put into
action, then it will continue to drain
me of a sober life I want to live.
I had to actually drive myself to
meetings, call my sponsor or someone
who understands addiction and could
give me some healthy affective
suggestions to take and use seriously
in order to put my 'stinking thinkin'
in its place, to rest or out the door.
For me to wander or walk around
others drinking pretending that
im cool that I cant drink normally
is absolutely insanity to me.
If I had to attend a function where
alcohol would be flowing, then in
order to protect my recovery and
peace of mind, my car would be parked
close by so I could make my quick
appearance and haul tail to it and
breath a sigh of relief that my stinkin
thinkin didn't get the best of me.
Those that have been successful in
their own recovery for many yrs was
and still is what I have always wanted
and would and will go to any lengths
to get, protect, be responsible for it
by all means.
Action for me means to adhere to
all that was taught to me, passed on
to me and to not just think about
it.
It has worked for me because I
have and still work my AA program
of recovery all to the best of my
human ability.
Of course this is my own ESH
that I continue to pass on.
