I was always attracted to the "bad boys" from my very first boyfriend. I'm from a dysfunctional family and never got the love that I longed for. I repeated the behavior by being with dysfunctional, like me, men, and people who were naturally unavailable emotionally to love me...it was what I was used to "familiar." I thought I "loved" them but what I was really feeling was "longing." I felt nothing for the nice available guys, found them boring and passed them over. Always longing for something out of reach and the feeling of excitement and danger. I felt alive! I read about this years ago in a book called Smart Women, Foolish Choices. The difference between love and longing. The book was about me. I also passed on healthy men because I didn't think I deserved them. Besides, they would probably leave me. You may be feeling love but not what your used to because he's healthy, it's healthy. That's wonderful! I believe this love will deepen and grow into all you hope it to be.