I've left many times. At least now i don't live with him. I'm wanting to break up again and am seeking help from domestic violence agency. It is emotional, verbal and (for you ) financial abuse. Even my new therapist didn't understand. I ask my Higher Power for the way...and I wait until the answers appear. I just wish I'd quit going into denial when I get lonely. But know if I work a program the loneliness will be less or not at all. Prayers with you.