Originally Posted by
Vinificent 
Thank you all for your wise words.
I am certainly not grieving for what was killing me. I am grieving for what, to me anyway, was a crutch that I ran to for any reason.
I wish I could say I had something else in my life that I could feel that way about.
yup, have something happen in life and my 1st reaction was get drunk. i THOUGHT it was a solution, but after i got sober i saw it wasnt. if it was a solution, i wouldnt have had the same problems comin up.
i found new solutions. to find those solutions i had to search, speak with others about my problems, listen,take what they suggested and put it into action, and see what the results were.
and the results were, and still are, awesome!