jimmyc

Thanks fini, might be ill health, but why me. My mum said to me the other day "you need to change mindset that makes your mouth turn upside down". Yeah ok i'll just change my mindset... Thanks Dee for your numbers. I tried SMART - Found it to be a completely depressive pool of shame and weakness. Everyone spills their feelings out, and that's it. Nothing constructive to pick anyone up again. I stopped going to that useless meeting. I'd try AA but I cannot unhinge the whole "higher power". There is no higher power. There is just us. We're born, we live, we die. That's it, light's out after that, game over. You'll probably ask why don't I just give it a shot if I have nothing to lose? I can't engage in something that asks me to look to "belief" for help. I don't believe in anything. Not for every drop of rain that falls a flower grows, nor for the belief that somewhere in the darkest night a candle glows. I really feel like i'm done. edit quote from song i'm listening to now.