Thanks anna. Don't know why I called, I should've left my phone at home. Don't know what a doctor or counsellor can do now. There's nothing I haven't heard that anyone can tell me. There is no help for me. It's going to happen sooner or later.
I thought that too. I thought my life would never change for the better and I was convinced that the pain sadness and the thoughts I was having would never go away.
That was 25 years ago.
Things did change for the better, and those thoughts did leave me - counselling was actually very beneficial for me, even when it hadn't been before.
I'm so glad I didn't make a lifetime decision on the way I was feeling those days.
I really hope you'll keep reaching out and asking for help.
I believe you have as much right to a long and happy fulfilled life as anyone else here Jimmy
Fight for your life. You're worth the effort.
D