Oh man, I can only imagine the pain you are feeling in your heart. I love german shepherds and have had them my whole life! You are such a beautiful soul for having given that guy a home in his last months and he didnt have to die on some cement floor in a cold shelter or out on the streets. Im sure he appreciated you so much! Im so very sorry about your heartbreak, I definitely understand the pain of loss but we dont have to drink through our pain/grief. We can spend our time just thinking and smiling and yes even crying and be present to our feelings.
(((((You!))))