Hi Sleepie,
I think we all have the tendency to be critical of ourselves. Something I have tried to focus on as part of my recovery is being kind to myself, and celebrating the positives. Rather than thinking "I drank for ... Years and did..." I think "I have been sober for 8 months and I am so much healthier both mentally and physically."
I am proud of the changes I have made in my life, and I have learned from my past, and it has helped make me the person I am today.
Try thinking of some of the traits you love about yourself, make a list and keep them in your wallet. Also, try reading/posting in the gratitude thread. It can put a positive spin on how you are feeling.
❤️ Delilah