Yeah who the heck knows why we are alcoholics? I don't want to forget why I figured out I am one though. Because that's what feeds the denial. Again, don't want to dwell in it but remembering what events led to that acceptance makes the tendency to revise history much more difficult. Writing it down here allows for some accountability. I think that's what the OP was trying to do when they said "it could help motivate sobriety". At least that's how I took it.