Need some kindness. 4 months til one year sober.
After I tried and forced myself to exercise I had an increase in anxiety. I stuck it out for awhile. It just felt horrible. Also feeling down about the way I've been treated by some others. I have some benzos. They appeal. I just feel discouraged after this last 8 months. I don't know, will I make it to a year sober, does it even matter? I really need some love and kind words right now. Also read up on abuse survivors, "tough love" is not a good thing for this. It just feels like more abuse. So, this is a forum and I'm allowed my insights and this is a big one. It feels like more abuse to me. I require kindness. I am 8 months sober. Fellow abuse survivors may understand. I need to read some kind and encouraging things tonight because I'm really discouraged. I have a feeling one of you will say I've already gotten kindness here. Well then, I'm asking for more. It's better than using, isn't it.