Welcome Sweetichick. This is a great place. I am going on a couple of weeks of sobriety in a large part thanks to this website. I knew I had a problem drinking, but had not convinced MYSELF how serious it was until I came here and started reading around.
It gave me a reality check and what it did for me was convince me that I WANTED to quit not only because of the bad things alcohol was doing, but for the hope to feel better as many of the people do here who have been sober a length of time. I look forward to becoming ME again.
Maybe read around and see what it inspires in you.