Ideas beyond don't drink? Go to AA and work the steps. I learned through that process that my sobriety did not depend on other people, relationships, or job or any external circumstance.
I had some hair raiseng moments in the first few weeks in the relationship department and learned some painful lessons, but I did not need to drink.
I heard somewhere something along the lines that drinking at someone is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die.
One thing I do know as fact, I trusted the process, put my all into it, and ended up with relationships and every other aspect of life much better than anything I could have imagined.
I won't tell you not to drink, I don't know if you have the power to do that. I can suggest if you get along to AA, you may find the Power like I did.