Hi John! Glad you found us. Sounds like you've really been through the wringer. I know you'll find lots of love and support here. Congratulations on the decision to quit drinking and for moving on from your relationship with your girlfriend. I really like what you said,
"... but if you do not grow together it is time to let go." You have a great attitude! Have you thought of finding an AA meeting in your area?
You're starting an exciting new (clean) chapter in your life! How blessed you are! Looking forward to hearing more about you and your recovery.
~T4C~
P.S. How about munching on some trail mix until you get your appetite back??? Just a thought.