Windancer -- you were one of the first people who greeted me here, and one of my first friends. You don't have to be suffering this year. Start hitting meetings, as many as you can, and let people there know you're struggling. Even if you're not 100% on the wagon, listen and learn from the oldtimers. Please get involved in a support group!
Join the August 2016 support group here, too. And as you told me once, post, post, post!