What's a normal drinker? What I mean by that is, I know what drinking was normally like for me. A few always started the itch , the only question was how hard I'd scratch.
It's gotten a lot better after not picking that scab, I'd say that the scab is now just a faded scar, pretty sure if I ever picked at it it'd open up.
Did you honestly think you'd handle alcohol differently than in the past? Has this experience changed your perspective? If so, are going to make a BP, with an added emphasis on not changing your mind?
Wish you well and hope to see you around