CodeJob, I couldn't and wouldn't give up. I stayed way longer than I should have because I wanted it to work so badly. It was not good for me, it was not good for him. I was on him like white on rice trying to "get him" to stop drinking. A task I learned was futile after we broke up. It's been very bitter and painful. And confusing. What sent me into this most recent tailspin was him telling me that he wished things worked out. Ugh!
This new stage in my life will give me the proper space to fully heal. These ups and downs are just no fun. I find I'm liking living in 4, 5 & 6. The adrenaline pumping and heart pounding is too much for me now. I never realized how often I lived in 1, 2 &3 or 8, 9&10.