Hi younghyde
I can say with some certainty you're not going to be single the rest of your life
here's how it worked for me.
I was one hot mess as a drinker. If I'd started dating when I got sober I would have been inflicting myself on someone else.
I would have almost certainly relapsed because I had no idea of how to deal with emotional pain or fear.
So I stayed sober, didn't date...spent some time with myself...I learned to love who I was and to fix up those parts I didn't like.
The more I was comfortable with myself the more others were attracted to me.
When I did date again, my romantic relationships were deeper and more adult.
My advice is ...give it time. You're young - 15 years younger than I was when I quit.
Get to know who sober you is - then you can work out what sober you wants
D