This is why in sobriety it's suggested no relationships for around a year
Use this time to work on yourself continually, write a possible list of triggers and keep a plan & yourself accountable by doing what it takes to remain sober
Over time there will be real realisations made & without thinking too far ahead - things change my friend some of the things I thought about in year 1 have changed perception in year 2 & so in to 3 also I see it as a continuing development that I love being a part of & it all rests on staying sober & why I'm staying sober