Hi YoungHyde. The good news is, you don't have to figure out your whole life right now ... it's often suggested to give oneself some sober time, like a year at least, before taking on a relationship. Many people have very happy lives single, but you don't have to even decide that right now. You are young and there is not a rush...
Maybe give sobriety a chance for awhile? You might find it easier to start putting together the pieces of your life, however you want it to be.