When we're drinking, we are stuck in black and white doomsday thinking. Everything is "always" and "never."
You don't really know who you are until you've given yourself time without mood-messing chemicals to experience life and how you really respond to it. Resiliency dissolves in alcohol.
You're wonderfully young...take advantage of it. Give yourself the chance to really mature mentally and emotionally by staying sober.
To paraphrase Dr. Seuss, "Oh, the places you can go..."
Find out, yes?