I know how hard it is when you end up at the outcome you never wanted.
I felt like my heart had been ripped out.
Then, everything started changing. I felt like myself again, the crazy person I had become faded, and life became good, peaceful, and happy.
I read over and over in here, that once it's all said and done, and despite some very, very normal grief, that it felt like a huge weight had been lifted.
We're here with you, and you did everything you could...and then some.