I dont want to drink tonight
Day 2. I feel better and that's a dangerous time for me. It's also my son's 18th bday and we are celebrating at a restaurant/pub tonight. I'm really nervous about going I know it sounds silly but I don't even know why people go out to dinner without drinking. For me that's always the whole point.
I don't want my AV to win. I know alcohol is poison for me.