Also I am not preaching what worked for me. BUT what did work for me was people reaching out, not judging me, not creating drama toward me, letting me know I mattered. I'm a "she". Just offering words of encouragement like some kind people on here have done for me many times in the last year. Get involved here. Post your problems and hash them out with folks on here. God knows I have and it's helped me more than anything! Keep pushing, don't give up!
And I said let's call it not drinking because some people can't wrap their heads around alcoholic right away. Some people need smaller steps. Always gotta explain myself. Got grant me the serenity to accept the things (and people) I can't change....